Sweetheart.

So I was helping Selma out with some work & the topic was marriage is overrated. It got me thinking. It’s truly disappointing how the idea & values of marriage have been lost as the years go on. My parents got divorced when I was really young & quite frankly, I do not remember them ever as married, or even on good terms in general. Where did all the love go? I mean, being married at a young age for my mother probably had something to do with it but after five children together, you would think there had to be some flame still burning. Well, that’s just one marriage… right? Wrong. My family has a pattern of divorce except my Auntie Donna & Uncle Steve & my godparents. My godparents have a decent amount of years as they have been married since 1998. As for my aunt & uncle, I don’t even know how long they’ve been married but I do know it’s not the same. It is so sad to know that even they most true of love can deteriorate into basically nothing. I just hope & pray I have the “until the end of time” marriage. I don’t just want to be another statistic added to the divorce rates.

Marriage is suppose to be about love & God. The Lord is the one who encourages marriage & yet society has misconstrued marriage & leaving lonely, broken-hearted people everywhere. Since we were little children, the fairy tale wedding has been instilled in our minds. So what happens to all the little girls that don’t get that wedding or the happily ever after once the honeymoon is over? I was not ever that girl. I just knew I wanted to be married & have a loving & beautiful family. I still do but I know it won’t be easy. I know sacrifices will have to be made but I believe in faith & that a happy successful marriage is possible. Once I broke up with my ex my freshman year in college, I have been single. & based on how things are going now, I am going to be single for a long time. I just pray that all this loneliness is just allowing me to open up my heart to something greater. To a love that I deserve & will receive.